I guess the title of my blog will make sense as you read the content of it. Last week, Friday, I have to say that I broke down. Why, you may ask? Here is the thing, so much has happened in this year, and as 2010 is ending I am realizing how much has truly occurred. OK, so I got a little off, that is not what I wanted to say. Back to Friday night, I was so stressed over this disgusting flu that was not leaving me. *cough cough.. yes I still am not completely well but I feel my body adjusting so much better. I had missed almost 4 days of work, and as incredibly exciting as that sounds, I was frustrated because I was unable to get anything done. I was worried about finishing up sorting the things in my apartment (from the move) and was so concerned about the homework, finals and papers that needed to be completed for school. I allowed myself to become overwhelmed with doubt and disappointment. Funny thing is one of the classes I was studying for was regarding our "coping" mechanisms and how sometimes we catastrophize the situation more than what we should. I tell you, thankfully my friend knocked some sense into me and I was able to regain my control and speak sternly to myself.
This leads to my next thought, I know that we encounter so much in our life. This past year as I mentioned briefly above, has not only brought me laughter but many tears along the way. I guess part of life is being able to go through all those moments and not ever lose hope that at the end all is for the purpose that has been destine from us from our divine father. Between trying to stay hopeful about our love lives, obtaining those good grades at school, keeping a good professional standing at work and trying to rebuild our relationship with GOD, we can say we become overwhelmed sometimes. In the path I have had to remind myself that if it wasn't for GOD I wouldn't make it, so I best make sure I involved HIM all the way down the path I have in front of me.
School continues to be a great priority in my life, and I have seen how much it has really benefited me. I am at 90 credits and I have never felt such an excitement about accomplishing a goal as I am starting to feel. I know that I am not done yet, but I sure do have my eyes set on the prize that lies ahead for me. I am seeking the LORD for guidance as far as my career goes, and honestly I am feeling the vision clear up. I still believe that there are some plans unknown to me, that truly I am excited to not know of. I only pray that I can continue to envision the bigger picture and keep myself focused. I am thankful for the relationships that have become stronger in my life and pray for those that have weakened. I continue to work on the areas in my life that need work but am thankful of what I have been able to accomplish. This came to my mind 2 days ago: "face your fears in order to defeat it". There is no way on earth that we will be able to accomplish or overcome those areas in our life that we struggle unless we face them. Don't be afraid of doing and aiming for the high goals. I continue to aim to become a certain size by next year, and little by little I will get there. So far, I have lost almost 25lbs. I know that I have so much to go, but I have learned that persistency is the key. Don't give up, look at the "fear" in the face and move forward. It is never too late, as long as you are willing.
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