Forget Everything And Restart

When faced with fear we are tempted to give up, we are pushed to surrender but we cannot let go. We must not give up. There are days that I am forced to face with opposition in life, there are days when the circumstances I am faced with seem so unfair and I cry because I simply don't like what I am seeing. Frustration takes over and the patience that I claimed seems to start failing me. My persistency to succeed and move forward is hit, we want to give up. Pain and sadness sneaks up on us and tries to bound our feet from moving forward, it paralyzes our dreams. One must not give up though. Those pains that sneak up on us try to establish a fear in us. What does that FEAR do? It limits us to what greater things are prepared for us.

I sometimes find that I am tempted to surrender to fear, let it control my present. FEAR is a result of a belief that something terrible will happen. FEAR of being in a relationship because you might get hurt. FEAR of being single because you will never find someone. FEAR to go to school because you can't see yourself being smart enough to make it. FEAR of not going to school because you will never reach your dreams. YOU see fear will limit. SOMEONE over the summer taught me such a valuable lesson. NEVER, EVER make a decision out of fear -- why? Because if you make a decision out of fear you are already setting limits to the results of that decision. The decision made out of fear will be short term -- and perhaps have permanent damage. When we make decisions out fear we will compromise ourselves because we are afraid that if we don't make this decision there will be no other options for us. So you choose, whether you want to live your life in fear or love. "Perfect love will cast out fear" and I believe in that.

NOT always am I the best are living this but I have found that this is the best way to live your life. YES, we will have some fears in our lives. SURE, somethings will almost seem to make more sense if we do them out of fear, but partly there is a sense of control on our half and our lack of trust and faith will push us to compromise. Sure, I question why somethings are the way they are in my life now, I won't even lie. I doubt at times that things will work out for me, but that is short term. ON the long run I know deep in my heart that I will get to where I need to get as long as I continue to believe. LIFE is too short to compromise ourselves to walk unhappy. I am compromised to myself to be happy. If I can't even love myself enough or love, love, then chances are I will be miserable but conformity has taken over. Don't misunderstand me, BE HAPPY where you are, but don't mistaken conformity for thankfulness. Life is intended to live progressively, NOT for us to never learn and grow. Lately, YES true, I am scarred sometimes, the past haunts us and the future just simply scares us. I guess that is why truth is the best way to live life is by the moment. We will use our knowledge of our past and our future to help us create consciousness of who we are but it will not control the outcome of what we will do. As tough as it may seem sometimes we simply need to restart and conduce ourselves in a forward manner. Just remember as Winston Churchill would say "NEVER GIVE UP" ... proceed with your goals .. move forward with your life. YOU CAN DO IT. Believe IT!

Consuming Fire.

There is a strong feeling of love that consumes my heart. Sometimes I don't even know what to do with this feeling? I am humbled by this great overwhelming feeling that has wrapped my heart to a point where I don't even know how to keep myself from showing it. However, there are different levels of love that we will have for each other. All I can pray is that I can know that the purity of GOD's love is what keeps my heart pounding for HIS love. But what when you love someone that doesn't love you the same way back? Do you stop loving them or do you continue to shower them with GOD's love and deposit in GOD's hand the rest because there is just so much you can do. I can no longer hold back that love that consumes my heart, so much that my heart wants to jump out and just love everyone with so much passion. It is a fire that surely consumes but only because of that love. God's love is that one that consumes you with love. That consuming fire that we know of is that eternal love that GOD has for us. There is no fear, no evil, no wrong doing in LOVE. I cannot completely ever comprehend the intensity of GOD's love all I know is that it has taken my heart to another love. There are so many things one can do for LOVE one of them is to completely devote oneself to that LOVE one feels.

MY love comes from above and because it is derived from God's love I am able to experience love to a whole other level in my life. All I can do is embrace this LOVE because fighting it will lead me nowhere, I am surrendered to this powerful gift of LOVE. MY heart delights in YOU LORD because you are my strength and because the LOVE that POWERFUL love will be the one that will help me overcome evil with LOVE. I believe in the power of LOVE I believe that there is a fulfilling power in the LOVE GOD has given us.

Love and Respect

Relationships are about Love and Respect
While loving you is crucial for us to be together
Respecting you will insure us making it till the end
We build our life based on fairy tales dismissing the fact that reality
has to do with more important factors
Encourage me to love and respect you so that at the end these two
can continuously reinforce why being together simply makes sense
Not only will it help us make it work but it will prepare us to face the not
so workable days

Glass half full or half empty?

Previously I wrote about how we were our own worst enemy. And I believe that this topic pretty much follows the same train of thought in some way. Recently, I was experiencing some real low moments in my life, not because of any reason in particular I guess just an accumulation of different things. None of these situations called for such attention but still I couldn't help but to feel sad about some things in life. We all know perfectly well that life never goes as we plan it to go. What the heck, even when I don't plan for it.. my not so sketched out plan still seems to suck sometimes, now that is bad. lol Our life may sometimes have a load of problems what we have to deal with, and disappointments but in addition to those we are surrounded by blessings that sometimes we ourselves are not even aware of. One thing about our faith that sometimes troubles is really putting things into a greater and more positive perspective, even when it is really not such a pretty site. I think many times I am considered a giddy very cheerful almost a little too positive in the eyes of some. And I won't argue I do seem a little more positive than other people but I guess it is in my nature to help people see the light that is found at the end of the tunnel. Now that doesn't mean that I have faced my moments of despair, because surely I have. Some frightful almost helpless moments where I question many things in my life. I even sometimes find myself being super hard on myself because things that are beyond my control I seem to want to become accountable for. It is this superwoman syndrome, I have somehow acquired, not by choice that is.

Now, I find that my faith in those moments of despair is what keeps me floating. Notice how I said floating. Sometimes the trials in our lives throw us deep into the water like a storm in the sea and swimming is not even a choice anymore. Imagine this for a second with me, just imagine yourself in the sea on a ship things were nice.. the wind was blowing at it's normalcy and then all of a sudden that weather takes a shift for the worst, like in life. All of a sudden, you find yourself like Jesus disciples in the sea and this storm seems to want to kill you, throw you off track, off the boat. Guess what, maybe just maybe, you will be thrown into the water because of this sudden storm... maybe even lose some air and drink some water in the middle of all of this but guess what you are still floating. I see my faith as my floaters, even in the worse situations of life. These little, simple balloons on your arm , the things they can do. That is your faith. I don't know what your fear may be but find what will keep you floating in those stormy moments.

That takes me to my faith and what keeps it going. I was hearing a friend preach on this character in the bible called Mephibosheth (2nd of Samuel 4:4) I was sooo-oo intrigued by this character, let me tell you why. Mephi (my nick name for him) was only 5 when his father Jonathan and grandfather Saul passed away) Mephi's nanny, the moment she heard the news rushed out and took Mephi far where he would be protected. In the process of leaving the nanny drops him and now Mephi is crippled. Time passes and Mephi continues with his life, even has children of his own but one day is requested by the king. Mephi was terrified when King David requested for him to visit him at his palace. This is it.. was probably what Mephi said to himself. David is going to kill me for sure. Poor Mephi little did he know if the promise that David had made Jonathan (his father). --- David spared Jonathan's son Mephibosheth,* who was Saul's grandson, because of the oath David and Jonathan had sworn before the LORD.2 - 2 Samuel 21:7--- Mephi had no idea, according to him his life was over. So what is my point you are asking? We live our lives crippled many times because of the mistakes of our parents or even grandparents. NOT to say that I encourage for people to live chained to their past but I do acknowledge that our past can have an affect on who we are today. Like Mephi, we are all promised a redemption plan. We do not have to subject ourselves to being crippled for he rest of our lives. Crippled by our past, even crippled by our present. Mephi didn't realize that his father had made an oath with King David, and because of this oath he would be redeemed from his families chaos. Our chaos can very well be our world, this world we live in. Our environment, our friends, our family even ourselves. However, we have to trust the promises that have been given to us.

Like many of us Mephi's life was good in the beginning, he came from a life of royalty, he probably had all the money he needed as a kid, toys, he had it all, he was a son of a prince. Things changed for him though. Life took an unexpected turn. Such that he had no control over, this was out of his hands. And then to top it off he is crippled because his nanny dropped him. Man oh man.. did things change for Mephi. It is sooo much easier in a situation to say "It's not fair" and I know that we are tempted to do so many times. Like Mephi we say, but why me? things were so much better.. life would have been great. However, we cannot dwell on what we don't see, but see what is in front of us, what is that we are missing out on. Mephi's curse was turned into a blessing. His families disgrace wasn't his disgrace, he was blessed at the end of it all.

Remember there was a promise that HIS now KING David had made with his father, it still stood. The promises of GOD stands in our lives also. Mephi didn't know this. As we sometimes don't know. In order to keep on in life it is important to have faith and believe. Believe in the person that GOD has created you and the purpose you have been appointed for. We get so lost in our lives because we cannot find our purpose. We cannot see the hope that lies ahead for us. It is time to change that. Mephi's situation and past didn't change. He was still crippled, and his past didn't change but his future would. What a promise can do! This story not only proves the importance of the integrity of King David but how the integrity can save the life of another. Everyday you will be blessed to be surrounded with people that you will impact in a negative or positive way. May our integrity and character never be stained. May we come to see the importance of our faith, and carrying our faith everywhere we go. Living a life of integrity, passion and commitment. Taking a stand for the things that are right, and doing what should be done. This all starts with us, and ends with us.

As we continue to journey in this path called life, may we remember that his promises will keep our faith standing. We have to believe and never loose trust. At the end of the day we chose whether or not we will live our lives to the fullest or give up on life. We will chose to LIVE and live STRONG. Turn your curse into a blessing today.

We are our own worst enemy

Isn't life funny. We spend half of our time blaming others for our lack of happiness. And we depend on others to make us happy. We can't help but to always find a way to blame others for whatever we need or don't have. For some reason this generation in our selfishness have been able to manage to not take accountability of the things we do or say. It is because of such behavior that this generation spends so much time searching for happiness. We indulge in food, we seek out for more money, we engage in new activities and hobbies, we run away from life because we think that what we need will require no sacrifice. It isn't a bad thing to do these things, it isn't bad to find new things in life but whether or not we are using this to excuse ourselves from life and depend on other things or other people rather than ourselves to be happy can be dangerous.

What is most scary of all this is that we have no idea many times what truly makes us happy. We are controlled by our thoughts of the present, past and future. Because of ourselves we are found in a struggle of completion. A struggle to finding out what truly makes us happy. Depression is at it's highest and although many factors contribute to depression at the end of the day we have to be willing to come out of that depression to enjoy life. It is so important to be able to take time to love ourselves, take time to get in tune with our faith, and do what we can to not only be happy but become accountable for what we do.

This selfishness is what drives us to hurt each other. IT is this behavior that has so many people not being accountable for the things they do or we do. How can we heal this generation? Will we continue to hurt each other and become afraid everyday more and more to trust and love? Have we become our own worst enemies?

It is these things that have created such a cruel world sometimes. Instead of us saying "wow bad people do exist" sometimes.. we are more shocked when we stumble across a good person. At the end of the day the choice will always be ours. Our goal is to make sure we are not hypnotized by this cruel generation we live in. Don't allow ourselves to fall into the trap of "selfishness" and continue to shine some love on this world. It is up to us. It is our world, we are our own worst enemies.

-- yours truly

Importance of time.

"There's a very positive relationship
between people's ability to
accomplish any task and the time
they're willing to spend on it."
- Joyce Brother


In the morning I am running around trying to get myself ready for work. I keep glancing at the time, trying to see how much more can I squeeze into those last minutes I have left in my apartment before I have to run to catch the bus. Each minute that goes by only means I have to make sure I use it wisely so I tell myself Gaby, you will have to make sure today you are not that long on your makeup because you have to prepare your breakfast. Then I glance at the time and see oh I have 4 minutes left, perhaps I can pick up my messy room a little bit. Then the watch hits 8:18 and run out the house, counting my minutes because the bus gets here at 8:38. At that point even how I walk will matter, will I gallop my way to work or will I have to speed walk? Will the bus be early or will it be late today?

What is my point you ask? As you saw my morning was constrained by time. Every minute I had was accounted for. If I decided to not do something or change my plan it would change my course of the day. The world we live in is surrounded by time frames which are determined by society or the particular goal that you or I may have set for ourselves. Some of these time frames are positive and some may not be. When it get's to the goals in our life there are certain things that will require more time. How do we value the time we have in this world? What are the things that take up the most time in our life? I have decided recently to really take the time to get to know who I am. Take time to work on my personal goals and dedicate time to those goals in order to accomplish them. The quote above was on my google homepage this evening when I went in to open it. It got me thinking about the amount of time that we dwell on the NOT so positive things.

Joyce Meyers in her message this past week was talking about the time we spend as woman on our personal appearance and how if we were to spend as much or some more time on the important things like bettering our internal self perhaps we would discover some great things about who we are. As I live this life I learn that every moment we have or share with others is important. When I look back to life how can I accountable for the time I have spent on this world? Did I make the time to love myself and value the person that God has made in me? Sometimes we live our life trying to substitute an emptiness we feel by consuming our time with unimportant events or habits. My life and time is worth more than just wasting it. We are called to first become ministers of our own life before we can become ministers to others of their life. Every second matters in our life, even those that sometimes we fail to see.

I know sometimes we are chasing time, we want to race towards certain moments in our life or even back to certain things in our past. We think that life needs to be programmed to where we want it to be at the moment but if there is something we learn is that patience is the key. When awaiting certain moments in life we need to learn to be patient and let go. Live each day for what it is. Appreciate your today as much as you sometimes value your yesterday and worry about your tomorrow. Count the blessings of today and allow for time to show you the importance of living in the present. If you have any goals set for yourself today remember to make the time for them, your relationships require time, your education, your well being, top of it all your spiritual life requires time. May we learn to prioritize our time and know how to manage it wisely because at the end time is of essence in our lives.

Everything is made new.

2 Corinthians 5:17 (New King James Version)
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.

Another year lies ahead for me and I am ready to embrace it. I have had my highs and lows, my losses and gains... a little bit of everything and all I can say is that if it wasn't for all of those I wouldn't be where I need to be today. Clearly, in life we will face good and bad days but it is what we make with those days that will teach us something. There are many things for me to be thankful today, the list will be super long but I will keep it simple. Here are just some:

1.God
2.Life
3.Love
4.Family
5.Friends
6.Church
7.My faith
8.My apartment
9.My Job
10.The strength giving to me to achieve my goals.
11.For today

I am super proud of where God has allowed me to be today, and know that I will continue to strive for the many goals I have ahead of me. I just have to keep my head up high and my strength relying on HIM. My focus on my goals should never cease and if it did happen remember that I can get back on track. Gaby, you are a blessed child from GOD and there are so many more promises that we need to see unfold so keep going forward. I shall see it all come to reality in my life. I just have to keep believing and trusting.

I look forward to the things that lie ahead for me, and will enjoy today for what it is.

*** This picture on my blog just shows where I would love to be now but can at least enjoy a picture of it. jeje.. Maine =)

Just saying. =)