Deep down inside of us we are all dreamers. As I grew up, something about the real world hit me. Something about "reality" made me become no so much of a dreamer. The world that I had seen as mine had been shattered by the cruelty of life. How boring and scary, can that become. I lived a rigid life, not seeing beyond what could possibly happen, I didn't allow myself to see past what was ahead of me or worse yet what I had left behind me. Truth is, we will never live in a perfect world, things will happen, some of which will not be pleasant and some even devastating. I allowed all these feelings of fear to create in me a syndrome commonly knowns as "control freak syndrome" I wanted to make sure that whatever I was able to control, I did. I felt like living a life of fairy tale would only mean I would have to live by "faith" and that means I would pretty much allow for life to take it's course trusting God. As a child, I had no idea what that meant and when I say "child" I am merely talking of about a couple years back because I was so far from understanding what faith truly meant. I am not no expert now, don't get me wrong. However, I am learning to let go little by little. My fear of suffering from "failure" or other's "failing" me, was not the healthiest approach for my heart. I know that perfection is far from my vocabulary, and although I don't aim to be perfect I do aim to be better.
Joyce Meyers says, I am not where I need to be but (and I add) I sure ain't where I used to be. There are many things in life, I don't think I will ever completely understand. Things happen, we face moments whens we realize that the things that used to work for us no longer work for us. As devastating as our world may feel, shattered as things may appear, we cannot let the pain to mold us into becoming this person that won't allow to live life to the fullest. I know that it is scary to dream, because there is always that factor of "what if it doesn't happen?" But life is all about taking those risks because of the dream we have, that dream that no longer only is a dream but now becomes a goal. I know that not everything that I want or "dream" about I will get, but if I don't take the risk of first "dreaming" I will not see past what exist in front of me. I have learned that people that accomplished things in life, those that have seen their life blossom to another level, were people that just dared to dream. God seeks people that envision something past what is ahead of them, and that is what I pray to become.
My faith has if anything taught me to see beyond what the "naked eye" can see, if it wasn't for that mere spark of hope, I think we would always drown ourselves by the disappointments that life and this world can bring to us. Feeling this way, was not something I was born with, or maybe yes. Who knows, all I know is that yesterday I didn't feel this way. Even when I went to sleep I had this sadness, but in the morning I was able to see the light of the situation. I had to really put my life in perspective, and know that whatever situation I am facing it is not something that will kill my dream. If your dream is to love, if your dream is to become an astronaut then don't be afraid to dream it. I can't be afraid to be happy and want more. We can't disregard that all our plans should align with those of God's but we can just leave that up to him. In the process keep dreaming, in the process don't stop believing. I know that life seems a bit much right now, I know that things don't always make sense, but I have to keep believing the promises that have been set for me. So, regardless of how cloudy the sky may seem right now, I know the sun is somewhere behind those clouds and sooner or later it is bound to come out!
